*bracing sigh*

I'm not sad anymore. At least not right now. It very refreshing.

Anyway. I have nothing to say this morning, but I thought everyone (ahemnoone) who reads this should know that I'm in an intensely good mood. I was in an amazing mood all week, even though I had no reason for it, and I didn't post for it. Nose!

Well, summer's coming up, so I might post more. Au vra!
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack.

I don't think anyone actually reads this anymore, but whatever.

I'm extremely lonely. My two best friends left me...and I don't know why. I'm kind of dreading summer. At least in the high-school, I won't have to see them as much. I guess that's a good thing.

Craig got a girlfriend. I don't know how I feel about this. It's intensely confusing. I don't see him anymore, so there's really no point about feeling like I deserve more than a friendship with him, and yet I feel like I wanted to go out with him, for a time. It'd be too awkward though. Way too awkward.

I don't know about Joseph. I saw him a couple times in St. Louis, and we talked, and we were comfortable, and we we hugged and I was very happy. He made me feel happy. Usually I would talk to Ariana about this, but I can't now, obviously, so it's just been pooling around in my brain for a while. It's been a confusing year. Eighth grade has defiantly not been my favorite.

Nothing else much has been happening lately. I don't know. I kind of feel like I'm fading away. I don't have a lot to lean on now; I'm kind of on my own. I don't mean to sound like I'm trying to cut myself off from people. I'm not. But it's been an unnervingly long year. It feels longer than usual. It's because so much has been happening.

I don't know. I'm very confused. It's not fun to look at them anymore. It always hurts me when I do.

*sigh*
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Once you showed me that life was worth living, But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Things are better now.

It's been a really long time since I last posted. I remembered when I posted almost every day. I don't know...time's just getting away from me.

I've developed a lot as a writer, I think. I'm still trying to get a publisher, but it's hard to get my confidence back. Lately, it's kind of eroded. Joseph and I are friends again. It's still hard for me to talk with him like I did, but whatthehellever, I'm happy with him again.

On another note, Ashley now is acting as if I will never be her friend again. So lifes is pretty crappy right now.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.