I've never been more pissed off with her in my life.

Bella. Godfuckingdammit. She thinks that hugging me will make up for it. She doesn't get it. How could she? She doesn't get that it's painful for me to be around her and I don't want to be around her but she still doesn't leave me the fuck alone!

She came up to me today and said, "I don't care how pissed you are at me, I'm still going to give you a hug..." or something to that effect. Does she not realize that when someone's pissed with them, you don't give them a hug? You stay out of their way. Duh. Stupid ass....

I don't want to talk to her. I'm still hallucinating and she doens't give a shit. Because who cares? I'm too weird for her to hang out with me. So fuck.

Yes. I am this pissed about it. I don't want her right now.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Halloween

Me 'n' Alyss are going to be asylum breakouts this year for Halloween. I don't care about the candy. I want to scare some little kid.

Here's my to-do list for this Halloween, and I want to get at least one of the many done before October:

~Actually tell my parents about this devious plan.

~Get my mom to make or buy me a straight jacket that can hook and unhook the arms and looks fairly authentic. Maybe get her to make a second one for Alyss. But she's probably on her own.

~Convince my mother to let me get these contacts for Halloween (this or the next one are agruably going to be the most difficult and may not even happen...)

~Convince my mother to let me buy a dreadlock wig. I'm excited for this one and might wear it on the last day of school if I find one and look nice in it. No, I don't need a dreadlock wig...but I find dreadlocks sexy and straight jackets sexy soooooo....ja.

It's gonna be an expensize Halloween...

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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Alyss

I'm going to invite Alyss over tomorrow, and we will go to Marsh, and I plan to buy a king-sized chocolate bar and give it to a little kid. Then I'll sit and wait for karma to come and hit me like a lead balloon.

No. I'm not kidding. I'm serious.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Dead Squirrels

I traced a dead squirrel with chalk today. I felt very sad and then buried it in our abandoned neighbor's yard. I'm so very sorry, Mr./Mrs. Squirrel.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Yearbooks are sources of sadness.

In last year's yearbook, I was reading some comments people left me. I came across one I had never seen from a person I had never met, and I strongly think it's a person who stole my yearbook. The note was written in Spanish. The phrase was: Si usted había tomado español este año, usted sabría lo que esto le dice bastardo estúpido. I have not taken Spanish since grade school, and none of the people I talk to know Spanish, and I didn't want to go to the Spanish teacher about it because what if she had written it and said something not nice and was going to lie to me about it?

Yes. I was really this paranoid about this random scribbling in my yearbook.

So I went online and looked it up. It translates to this: If you had taken Spanish this year, you would know what this says you stupid bastard.

I was very sad.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

I'm losing my sanity.

I have never wanted to glue googly eyes to anything more than I want to to my father's forehead while he's taking a nap tomorrow afternoon. However, I don't think he'll appreciate my brand of humor. I should take some googly eyes to Ariana's house next time I go and glue them to the back of her dad's head. because her dad is bald and something has to take up that open space. Maybe I'll take a magic marker and draw a happy face too. That would be funny.

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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

My English teacher is a rock star.

Mr. Dodd, if you ever find my blog, I want you to know that I am freaking in love with you. Like, I don't want to date you. But you're awesome. But if you want to date me, that'd be cool. And also a little creepy. But you know what? You're awesome. So anyway.

Oh wow. I completely lost track of what I was going to say. But seriously? Mr. Dodd, you are a rock star. Or an awesome person. You are an awesome rock star.

Um. I'll get back to all of you if I remember what I was going to say about Mr. Dodd.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

I have never been so fucking amused with orange juice.

Today at school I was reading the side of my friend's orange juice carton because I was bored. I was reading the nutrition facts and began to laugh. Hysterically. They all looked at me like I was crazy and I showed them what made me laugh so hard:

Sugars: 0mg

My life is complete. I took a pen and wrote an exclamation point after the 0mg. Then Ashley threw it away. D:
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

BoredomdomdomDOM!!

I'm bored. I was checking all my bookmarked blogs, and no one has posted in at least three days *coughAlysscough*. And then I realized 'If I'm bored with people not posting on their blogs, maybe you people are bored at me not posting on MY blog!!'

Holycrap!! But I don't know if I have anything to....Nope. Nothing to talk about. Sorry.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Setting things straight.

I've gotten knowledge from a not-so secretive friend that Bella is 'worried about me' because i sound 'depressed'. Apparently, life has to be perfect every single friggen second of her life, and everyone has to be friggen perfect for her, because if it's not, than that person is depressed.

I want to set it straight. I am NOT depressed, thanks, but when you talk about me behind my back and tell people I am, yeah, I'd say I'm licenced to get pretty pissed off and whomsoever was doing her little gossip-gossip. If you don't think I am....well, you can just go now, okay? *shoo away* Go on. Shoo. Shoo!

But anyways. She told this not so secretive friend (her name is classified for reasons unsaid, but I like to call her Chibi because she's short and cute) that she was worried about me and that I sounded so depressed and upset about every damn thing that happens in my life. Well, you know fucking what? Yes, I am pretty upset at what's been going down. I mean, I get enough crap from people in school, telling me how not awesome and not totally rad I am, and I'm used to it because I hate those people anyway and they can burn in fire and brimstone forever. But with Bella? Well damn! How bad is it when your thought-to-be friend talks about you behind your back? Notfun.

I know what Bella's thinking right now, because I'm a mindreader; 'I didn't do anything wrong! I thought I was doing what was right because I'm a good friend and I'm worried about you!'

Ha. Yeah. No. Like, that's a fail right there. That is a failpie right in the face. That...is despicable. She thinks that she's helping and she's not. She's making this 'depression' worse.

And Bella. If you're even reading this, I stand by what I said before: If you call me, I will hang up. If you try to talk to me on Sunday, I will walk into the boy's bathroom or out of the church. Don't talk to me right now, Bella. I really don't have the patience to deal with it right now.

That is all.

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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Alyss is here, everyone.

Alyss is over here for the night. We're gonna go see a football game. Bye.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Oshit I'm posting so damn much today! For gossake!

I'm just bored, kay?

Holy crap. What is my deal? Why do I have such long posts. Seriously, it's rediculous! This one is short. I know I'm awesome!
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

ADHD

I know that someone reading this right now knows who I am and had hung out with me at least once. Well, eight out of ten times, I'm normal, very tired, hungry, sarcastic, spacey Siobhan Seamus Whelan. But that two out of ten times...well, I'm totally ADHD. Ask Alyss or Kirame or Lemur or someone. They'll tell you that when the mood hits me right, I go wild.

Example. Today in English class. I was totally dying of hunger and thirst (because I have a cold) and boredom. So I looked over at Kirame and started playing with her hair, which I think really freaked her out. It would me. But I lost interest in that in the first ten seconds and started fiddling with the rubber duck she has on her lanyard. Then she acted like it was attacking me. Then I ate it.

Not really. I think I would be in the emergency room dying of asphyxiate-ness. But I'm not. I just chewed on the head. And she was like 'Don't eat it!!' And I didn't.

And we switched around everything at the lunch table. Yes, that's a big deal for me. It totally sent me for a trip. I was sitting next to newgirlCassidy and when I look up, MIKEY is sitting there!! What the fuck? I mean, Mikey is awesome and everything, but he's no Kirame (who usually sits in front of me)! So I just stared at him for the longest time.

On my side of the table, from left to right, it goes Anna, me, newgirlCassidy, and Syhma. On the other side, it's Twitchy, Kirame, Alyss and Mickey. TODAY it was, from left to right on my side, Symha, me, newgirlCassidy and Alyss. On the other side was Twitchy, Mickey, Kirame and Anna. What the f?

No, but seriously? Everyone hates Anna. I don't know why we put up with her. Half the time I was to slap her because she ALWAYS has to know what we're talking about, ALWAYS has to know if we still like her, ALWAYS has to tell us that she hates us, ALWAYS has to put her opinion into our conversation, even if it's got nothing to do with her. Seriously, it doesn't sound bad when I type it out, but GOD... I don't know why we let her sit with us. It's because, I think, we had to. We're not allowed to exclude people from sitting with us because that's discrimination and that's a bad thing. Which pisses me off. She shoudl go sit with her stupid giggling friends and let us eat without her screaming at us to stop talking about her. She's actually threated to kill me if I talk about her.

Da hell. I'm used to people talking about me behind my back because, well, they're going to amuse themselves until they get shot in the head. So when she goes and screams at me across the room: 'IM GONNA FUCKING KILL YOU!' it makes me laugh. Like. Hell. I'm just tired of the douche...

Gah. Stress ball. You is one.
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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

MMMMMMMMMMMM hai

Hey. I've been depressed lately. Don't judge me.

Um. I totally forgot what I was going to say. Shit... Uh, let's see. I already told you about my epiphany with Saw II right? I'm sure I did... *checks other posts* Yep, I did. So...I don't know what I was so happy to tell you guys...


OH ja! Now I remember!! I'm on page 210 on my second novel!

210!!

Like, holy crap!!

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Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

I wanna talk to her.

I had a dream last night. Bella read the post where I said I was pissed off at her. She cried like hell and I couldn't console her, but what was scary was I kinda didn't want to. It was a weird dream.

Oh well. Still majorly pissed off with her.

Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

New Shiggeh

Once you showed me that life was worth living,
But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.

Teh Shiz: Moving down the Slope

Ever notice how when you change one letter in a word, it makes a completley diffrent word? Oh yes:

then-n+m=them

Yes, this is what I do on Tuesday nights before Hell's Kitchen is on. Because I love that show.

Le gasp!! Have any of you seen the box for Saw II? I doubt you have. I like those movies, and the first time I saw the box cover was like two days before school started...then again, I'm just developing a taste for the gore that is Saw, so that might not be so unusual...'Nyway, on the box of Saw II (um, by the way...that double letter at the end? That is not eye eye. That is the Roman numeral for 2~), there are two severed fingers; if I had to guess, I'd say it's the ring finger and the middle finger, just because it would make me giggle if the middle finger was popped up on the box and no one noticed...except for me an Kirame...but I digress.

MMKAY!! On the box of Saw II, there are two severed fingers sitting side-by-side. I was thinking about it last night when I couldn't sleep, and I had a life-changing epiphany! The two fingers might represent the 2 in Saw II. That never occured to me. So I told Kirame today during school about my suspicions, and she was like 'Ummmm, yeah, that's kind of what it was there for...did you seriously just figure that out?'

Well damn! I'm just so unobservant. Which is odd. I am the most observant of all my buddybuddies. Um, as far as I know, none of the other Saw movies have a clever little finger thing on the box. Which is good. Because, um, then it'd get boring.

Kirame, you are a special, special girl.