This was a triumph. I'm making a note here--huge success.

Disregaurd that title, please.

It's been a long time. I'm sure all four of you who read this blog have been waiting with baited breath. Or not.

I'm not going to continue my rant about Eddie. I decided I was not in an Edward Cullen mood. He just...downs me. Makes me sad.

Instead, I'm going to talk about something we were talking about in a youth group last night. It's about God. If you don't care for God, shoo. Because this is about his feminine creation--women. I'm actually putting something deep on this blog; I hope you four people reading this will walk away thinking about it.

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We were talking about how women have a natural craving for relationships; contact with another human, usually a masculine one, and how our lives revolve around find a special someone and settling down and living with them for their life and being all happy and stuff like that. Curiously enough, I do not yet have this craving.

I don't mean to be argumentative. I just don't feel like everything I do should revolve around having a husband/boyfriend. That's not important to me, or at least it isn't the most important thing in my life right now. Would I like a boyfriend? Yes, that would be nice. But I don't. But I'm not obsessing over it. It's been months since my last boyfriend (last of a long line of two whole boys) and I'm just fine. I'm not concerned about finding a husband or my soulmate, especially not in friggin high school. That's not important in high school. It shouldn't be for anyone. Maybe not even in college.

Am I condemning girls whose lives revolve around their boyfriends? Of course not. But I am upset over the alarming way most females tend to obsess over everything their boyfriend does and they end up ostracised by friends and family because of how obsessive they are. I can't stand it when the inital sentance in a conversation is 'Guess what *insert boyfriend's name here* and I did ALLLLLLLLL day??'

You hung out. Hurp de derp. And truthfully? I don't give half a shit about what you and your boyfriend did ALLLLLLLLL day. Maybe if I ask you about it, it's free game, but don't come up to me a bellow about how much you love him, because chances are you don't and he doesn't love you.

God, I sound like I'm angry at heterosexual girls.

*deep breath*

I'm not. I just don't like listening to people getting emotional about a guy who they probably won't even remember in three years. Which beings me for a distaste of people wanting a boyfriend. Hell, I want a boyfriend. I do not want a player who likes to slap girls' behinds in the hallways to show off to their friends who don't even like them. And that is the majority of guys in the high school, especially in my grade. I demand respect from guys, which might be why I'm so unpopular. Whatever.

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Once you showed me that life was worth living,But you never showed me that you’re worth forgiving.